I always knew that I am the type of girl who falls in love pretty fast and most of the time I fall real hard… flat on my face since nobody’s brave enough to catch me. Just like the line from the movie I just saw a few weeks back, it’s not that I am not fed up of getting hurt; I am just not tired of loving.
Love for me has never been easy. It’s full of BS, if you ask me. But I always choose to fall nevertheless. I can’t help questioning myself why I always choose to risk getting myself hurt over and over again. Why fall so fast? Why him? Why now? Why can’t you wait? I am not a love guru but I give other people advice on love and relationships. I find it hard to think of advices I can give myself or get answers to my own love questions. I tend to over think which makes it even more complicated. I often tell myself to stop but I can’t, I don’t want to so I won’t.
It’s funny how this one thing drives me crazy, how it makes my life seem so exciting, how it makes me look forward to another day with a smile on my face, how it makes me cry and laugh at the same time, how it makes me forget the feeling of being alone, how it gives me the courage to tell someone I like him, how it somehow makes me go out of my comfort zone and be free from what I am accustomed to, how it changes my mood, how it gives me the strength to get up and try again after a fall, after getting hurt and being broken. I love getting butterflies in my stomach or having that feeling of excitement whenever I'm meeting that special someone. I love having these conversations that really brightens up my mood. I love seeing a smile on his face and I love smiling for him. I just love being "korny" when I talk and I don't get embarrassed. I just love to Love. Period.
I am glad to have found someone who makes me feel all these. I feel blessed and I thank God for it. I wish this will not just be a temporary feeling, a spur of the moment feeling. Time is not something I am always worried about but for this matter it does and the moments we create with the time we spent together. :)
Some say it’s better to love and get a broken heart than never to have loved at all. It's probably the best feeling in the world, so why stop yourself from experiencing it. I believe God has given each of us a partner. Someone who'll give us the love we deserve.
We don’t have to look for Love. Trust in God that he will eventually give it to you. He will give you the right person at the right time. :)
We don’t have to look for Love. Trust in God that he will eventually give it to you. He will give you the right person at the right time. :)
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