Deaths and Funerals

I just came from Nueva Vizcaya yesterday to visit a friend who's dad died of stroke. I felt sad when I heard about it and I'm still sad now.  News about a death makes me worry about the friend who is left behind by a loved one. Also it kind of serves as a reminder that God may take my life or the life of anyone close to me anytime. I can't shake off the feeling of uneasiness when I think about it. :(

I don't go to funerals. Why? First, I don't know what to say when I go to one. Second, I am usually a jolly person so I find it hard to keep my smile from showing. Third, I don't want to see sad, weeping people. I hate the feeling of not being able to help someone because I cant bring a person back to life, something like this can't be helped. I didn't want to go because of the reasons I stated, but this time I felt like I had to. It's difficult to comfort someone but it's easy to listen. The family needed a listening ear and a sympathetic heart and that's what we gave them.

Death is a scary thing. They say we don't have to be afraid of it, but in reality it haunts us. But one thing that scares us the most is the death of a loved one. It is unexpected and probably the most depressing chapter of ones life.   Acceptance has never been an easy thing to do. I, myself, wouldn't know what to do if something like this happens in my life. Actually, I don't even have a single thought about it until now. This made me realize that I should really start living my life and get the most of it before I leave the face of the earth. I should value the people around me. Be merry, love and live without regrets.

We can never say when, how or why people die, we leave those to God. Those questions we often ask but oftentimes we become too dumbfounded to fathom those heartbreaking answers. Some already know that a person may die soon but they stay in denial phase. When that person dies, they keep themselves from moving on and they become stuck in that phase, failing to accept that circumstance in their lives and they never get back on track again. Feeling regretful and guilty for whatever they did and/or they didn't do when that person was still alive. Death is inevitable but living is not.

I am happy that my friend still remains to have that smile on her face despite the mournful situation she has gone through the past week. I hope she carries on with the happy memories of her father and her family. :)